Sometimes I make rational decisions because its what I want at the time. Because it is what I see all the other girls wanting and having. I know that its bad to do that but in all honesty I panic and get worried.
Sometimes I feel like I’m pretending that everything is okay. I pretend like stuff doesn’t bother me, but it does.
Sometimes I feel like I know what i want but then when it is given to me, I dont want it at all.
Sometimes I feel so confused that all i wanna do is to do what I want but I don’t because I don’t like hurting others and I don’t want peoples opinions of me.
Then, I ask myself….
Why do I care so much?! I’m only going to be able to be me and that is all i want to be. I don’t strive to be perfect, but I do strive to do my best. I can only be as happy as I can, but to be happy, I have to feel good on the inside and with decsions I make and with the outside of me. I need to just go back to not caring about everyone elses opinion and just do what I want to do. And along the way I’ll figure out who I am, and what I am suppose to do in this world!